December 26, 2002

Who Pays For The Sandwiches?

i need a posse.

7 -- Company Posse Needed (New York)
Mon Dec 23rd

Heroic-type executive seeks a cool, hip, posse to travel with him during most occasions. On buses, on trains, walking down the street, attending meetings, hanging around outside of office, at the arcade, etc. Should be extra cool upon confronting clients, ex-girlfriends and buddies from high school. Posse members should be able to write and compose theme music, preferably with clever lyrics. Super fly fashions only. Must walk with a swagger. Look mean, but be nice to hero. Sandwiches for lunch daily. Please send cover letter and describe what makes you so darn cool. Handsome wages open to negotiations. As the kids say, word.


This posting can be found at:
http://www.craigslist.org/nyc/etc/7535808.html

Posted by ash at 12:42 AM

December 25, 2002

Winds of Change

almost 7pm. snow is falling, mike is asleep on the couch, the living room is a disaster. guess that's christmas.

last christmas i was in london with fraser, and getting sick. the christmas before he was here, we went to niagara falls, and...i was sick. the year before that, i was sick in new zealand with fraser for the holidays.

so, you see, things are very different this year. no trip. no fraser. and i'm not sick. guess everything has some good and some bad.

Posted by ash at 07:07 PM

December 13, 2002

i wanna wish you a merry christmas

my wishlist is growing. i got into the holiday spirit while i was in san antonio this week, my boss had "feliz navidad" stuck in his head for 4 days - he sang, hummed, and whistled it the entire time we were there.

i got the ericsson t-300 that i have been wanting tonight, but i am still sad that the us version comes in green instead of the uk sky blue. and there are no changeable face plates available in the us, either. i am hoping that some person with a t-300 in the uk will buy a new faceplate, take off the sky blue face cover that comes standard on the uk model, and decide to sell the redundant (but still beautiful) cover on e-bay just in time for someone who loves me to buy it for christmas. wouldn't that be perfect?

Posted by ash at 02:16 AM

December 06, 2002

Choose (Sense Of) Life

I need to pay more attention to the brighter and happier aspects of humanity, rather than the gloomy, death-ridden aspects as I have been. I shall retreat into a fantasy world where Iraqi acid baths, suicide bombers, race riots and all so forth have no right to exist.
said simon at malpractice

Do it, Simon, I implore you! Choose happiness! The competition for "most miserable" gets so exhausting after a while, and no one ever wins.

There was once a time when people had deep, dark serets. I don't think that it is healthy to feel that you have to hide things from the people you are closest to. But somewhere along the way, people have become so empowered that now they wear their "issues" as openly as a badge of honor. There is a sense of superiority in having suffered, as if being damaged makes a person more complete than someone who is free from scars.

I believe that you learn from all experiences, including tragedy. But you learn more from moving past pain than from carrying it along with you. It doesn't take a "fantasy world" to see the joy in every day of your life, nor does it require that you evade the fact that there is evil. Accept that it exists, but that it isn't the meaning of life. Your meaning comes from the choices that stir your passion and spirit. Just make the right choices. Why mope around to Mahler when you can be enchanted by Puccini? Why be depressed reading Dostoevsky when you can be inspired by Dumas?

I only have so many years, and I don't know the number. I don't have time for man-haters, life-haters, depressing things. To refuse to see that glorious and brilliant things are all around me would be to deny reality. And it is impossible to think of all the universe at once. So then, it is all a matter of where you shift your focus. What will you choose?

The benevolent universe premise is the idea that the world is fit for human habitation, that it is a source of infinite joy and pleasure, and that pain, ugliness, and disappointment need not be the focus of one's waking moments. Pain is addressed head-on, resolved to the best of one's ability, and then relegated to the back of one's mind while more pleasant issues are attended to. Difficulties that cannot be solved are endured, but they are not be the focus of thought. People who believe in and act on the benevolent universe premise are said to have a good sense of life.

Ayn Rand's Benevolent Universe Premise is discussed in Allan Gotthelf's book "On Ayn Rand"

Posted by ash at 12:54 PM

December 04, 2002

No Kidding!

My dog's hair has been falling out for over a year. His vet thought he had mange, then lyme disease. He got treated for both, but still had bald spots and itchy skin. Moose changed doctors and the whole process started over, but his misery didn't end. Until recently. Someone suggested that Moose could be allergic to his dog food! Apparently it isn't uncommon. We bought a cookbook written by a small animal gasteroenterologist, and now we cook meals for Moose at home. For those of you who are wondering, a dog on an allergy diet eats rabbit, venison, chicken, salmon, and lots of sardines. He enjoys them with a side of brown rice, macaroni noodles, potato with skins, or broccoli. It all gets topped with a tablespoon of either olive oil or corn oil, a few bone meal tablets, and a Theragran-M. Yep, the people kind. With the Home Prepared Dog and Cat Diet book, neither Moose nor the cats will ever get bored at mealtime again.

Posted by ash at 10:33 PM